Friday, December 02, 2005
~ 7:10 AM ~
oh dear god.. can u change our life back as usual? i dun wan this fighting thing going on anymore.. i reallie regret! i will to do anything so long as our relationships get back well again.. i love her.. but that isn't my fault, i've been trying to control my temper but it can't be helped.. god pls. give me this chance to change our lives! i dunwan this cooling period! i wan back the OLD LIFE!! the one's where we can have fun all together!! Jing Jing, Khoon Seng, Jacob, Joel, Jasper and me!! i wan that life.. i reallie dun mind.. doing anything tedious.. if it's within my means, i will.. can we be the coolest 5J-1K gang again?? i reallie hope that would happen.. my life i gonna make a 360 degree turn without them.. i'm worried i would do something stupid again lyk that time in sch.. i need them to give me their best support!! but i will also support them when needed at different times!! the old memories were not abt us i was the other 2 pieces of paper i was holding too.. that was abt the life with my friends in sch.. they are beginning to ignore me.. i alwaes feel i am neglected.. it reallie seems i'm not fated to have close friends they will jus one by one disappear.. lyk those in primary sch, after 4 years together the all hate me.. wad's the reason?? i reallie dunno.. an one whose the best with me during that 4 year hated and criticise me so loudly when i walk past her.. wad can i do? i even bought the presents when i when for holidae.. they were the ones in the photo put up in photo frame in my room.. yup they are the one.. but i can't tell anyone.. only the teacher who saw the changes realised it.. i reallie had no friends at that time till i met this good friend cally.. which we shared many times together! now with this LOC9 the same thing i gonna happen.. that's why i need u!! my dearest cousins!! i reallie need that to happen.. if u have read it.. call me if u think that's gonna happen.. and even if u received the letter i mailed to u.. call me..
*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y
