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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

~ 3:10 PM ~

i thott today would be a better day than yesterdae but it bloody hell ended up just as bad.. firstly was taking the bus to school on my own today cuz my dad went to play golf again.. haiz.. stupid bus took so long to come.. come already at the next few station the bus was flooded with more and more people.. one thing i hate taking bus during peak period.. i hope i dun have to take it again!! then in school.. first three lesson was kinda okiie even though had 2 mrs cheong's lessons for english and literature.. then physics.. it didn actually spoil my mood until miss chia said there's extra lesson on friday... damn! crash with my dental appt.. i wanna go dental appt to change colour but i also dun wanna miss physics.. i thott if we tell her cannot then she can change to another dae lor.. then i heard ****** sae she got ncc that day lah.. so i thott if she would go and tell miss chia to change another dae at least better mahhz.. so i whispered to her asking her if she wanna tell miss chia and see if there's another dae lorr.. then i just said, "eh ******, u wanna tell miss chia that u not free cuz i also cannot then i wanna tell her." she ignored me at first lahh.. then i ask again lorr.. she actually said this in a bloody rude manner lahh, " i'm not gonna miss physics for my cca lah~~~!" hello!?!? i was just asking okae? i dun deserve this from u.. so i attitude her lah.. i mean not only here but zy and kei too.. cuz i'm bloody fed up!!! sorry kei and zy.. X/ i dun support u missing lessons just becuz of cca.. i was just thinking if we can change or arrange another dae with her lorr.. i wasn't at any fault why are u giving me such a bloody disgusting attitude!!! so i totally ignored them lyk they always used to ignore me.. like leaving me out of their conversation just not.. damn lah... then i left class without them lorr.. i didn wanna talk to them at all.. later had to stay back to plan the amazing race for prefect camp.. then siken told me about the civil defence badge thing plus the cert.. miss sharifah already told me so i'm not the least surprise at all lorr.. but the stupid thing is that she said miss sharifah told her to go get the badges from guides house.. MISS SHARIFAH!! how could u ask her to collect the badges and certs on your behalf!?!?! i was going to guides house the other but u didn ask me to help u collect yet u asked her.. NOT FAIR!! u said u would go down personally to collect them.. how many times have u ask her to collect badges and stuff from the guides house.. countless.. ARGH!! hey doesn't this show that u trust her more than the other PLs? i'm not happy with that and i believe that siew ee will not be happy too.. i mean it.. this also shows that she will most likely become CL.. i dun want that to happen.. never!! i rather siew ee be CL than her.. that's my stand even though i've always wish to be CL lahh.. haha.. hey guides vote for me okiie.. she's already a vice head prefect.. it's not fair that she gets to be CL too..!! totally no FAIR!!! i hate this lah.. i realised miss hasna and ms shahidah are so much fairer.. haha.. miss hasna u rawk!! ms shahidah.. i miss u please come back soon.. november's closing u shld be back in school soon rite? haha.. hope to see u in school asap!! gotta go!! byE~!

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

Friday, October 26, 2007

~ 7:15 PM ~

i wrote the email.. i hope it wont hurt her feelings... i'm sorry jing if i did.. this is wad i wrote..

Hello dearest,
Erm i dunno why am i sending u this email.. maybe becuz i'm mad.. But i seriously do not know why.. maybe it's becuz i think we're gonna lose our close relationship soon.. or it's already gone.. i think wad i'm going to sae may hurt ur feelings or maybe spoil ur mood.. i think we dun talk much now.. i dunno how did it happen.. maybe it's that bloody quarrel we had the few years ago.. it's in ur heart.. i believe so.. that's why we're drifting very much apart.. it's getting further and worse... u dun count on me anymore.. u dun confide in me anymore.. maybe even i'm not important to u anymore.. i guess it's becuz u've grow up.. matured lyk u always said.. seriously i dunno.. i just feel that i am beginning to not noe you.. ur getting further away from me.. further and further.. i'm sorry to say this.. i dunno how we can salvage this relationship.. maybe u may decide to give up i dunmind.. i hope i won't lose you.. ur important to me.. maybe jacob's right i shld talk to you.. but i dunno how to talk to u face to face so i decide to write u this email.. maybe u may sae it's me that change.. i dun deny that fact.. i may have changed.. alot u may sae.. i'm talking less with u.. maybe u may think 'wah jesslyn so cool always dun talk de..' but have u wondered ur closer to jacob now.. see wad happen at calen's first month 'party'.. u were all in the room.. maybe even on my birthday.. i came home u guys didn even bother to come out of the room.. why am i caring so much?? wish i was better off somewhere.. somewhere there's people to care for me.. otherwise somewhere there is no feelings in the world.. hey girl i'm not blaming u.. or wad ever.. i just think i dunno u anymore.. sorry i hurt u.. it's from the bottom of my heart.. OMG i's such a coward a loser.. i dunwanna drag jacob into this so he's out of the topic here.. u can decide if u wanna reply me.. wadever it is.. i thank you for being a important part of my life.. i love you.. u mean the world to me..

i hope it doesn hurt her.. serious.. jing u mean a lot to me.. love yaH.. =)

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

~ 6:35 PM ~

hmm.. was reading jingjing's blog.. then i realised i am beginning to not know her anymore.. i dunno izzit that bloody stupid childish quarrel million years ago.. most probably so.. i dunno her any more.. we hostile to each other.. we dun talk.. nobody's willing to take initiative.. maybe i shld listen to jacob's suggestion and sort it out with her.. i dunno actually.. i noe she's important to me but i dunno how to talk to her.. she's different from that ohjingjing i've known.. she's not her and maybe i'm not like the jesslyn she used to noe too.. i'm sure... i dunno how to communicate with people.. it's a fact.. i dunno how to talk.. i dunno how to take intiative.. all i do is wait.. thats wad a failure i am.. i mean it.. u can try putting me in a situation where i dunno anybody there.. after a while u'll see i'm still alone unless someone approaches.. i seriously a failure in social skills.. haiz.. how do i improve it? i dunno.. even in 2/3 last year i dun talk to a lot of ppl.. i wont talk.. i dunno maybe it's becuz i care wad people sae and see about me.. haiz.. i dun like that character of mine.. i dun but i can't change it.. i want to be a sociable person but it's a tough hurdle for me.. i dunno wad to do.. sometimes i just wanna give up.. i dun like being alone.. i hate that.. i think i'll consider jacob's suggestion and write her an email since it is difficult to talk to her face to face..

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

~ 3:15 PM ~

hmmm... well my results suck! i'm so not happy with it.. so many Bs.. ARGH.. luckily i check with mrs koh about the chemistry mark and she realised there was a mistake ans started reprinting all the things again.. thank god.. i from B4 jump to B3 becuz of the mistake.. phew.. people if it helped u all must thank me okiie... haha kidding lahh.. collected report book and position lost to zy, oliver, john and cally.. argh.. so sad lah... was hoping to be top 10 in class but missed by 2 position lahh.. i'm soo sad.. remember i wanted to bang the wall when i noe i lost to them.. wanted to beat lorr.. in the end lost to him by 4 positions... i swear i'm gonna work like triply hard.. i wanna do well for o levels.. everything is drawing nearer.. Spa test also.. haiz.. hope i can do well for spa.. it contributes some % there.. o level's important.. i wanna go to good school or go overseas study.. WORK HARD JESS!! MUGG MUGG MUGG!!! =) STRESS!!!

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

Thursday, October 18, 2007

~ 8:55 PM ~

what the hell!!! my brother just spoiled my mood!! idiot!!! cycle my bike and crashed it~! damn him!! he's bloody fat larh!! destroy my bike.. if he dun play the bike it wouldn't have been gone!! IDIOTIC~!!! i'm so pissed off... bloody Jasper u are the one that's fat k!! u spoilt my bike.. idiot~! dumb ass!!! iHATEu!!!!!!!!!
Goodbye my many-year-old bike~!! love u lots... u bring back many nice memories.. sadly didn get to take a picture of u before u were thrown away.. iloveulotss... missyou!!!

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

~ 8:30 PM ~

OMG!! today students from japan came to our school for a one day visit! they're from Sagami Ohno HigH SchooL! they arrived to our school late.. came only at 9.45 am.. there a lot of cute/shuai and hot guys lahh!!! er... so cute lahhh! the girl nearly went crazy but and we took a lot of photos!! i think there a guy that's super duper CUTE lah!!! wow! was i was like crazy over him~! =.=' haha.. but he's reallie cute! all the girls wanted to take a photo with him.. SEOW SUAN send me a picture of him okiie? please..

<-- he's CUTE .. haha [i cut this photo from a group photo of them] sorry whoever that 'kop' the pic from.. i can't remember whose it was..

I lyk the fashion show they put up for us.. the clothes/attire are so nice! the gals in the kimono are very pretty and they look very nice.. the japanese students are all so friendly.. they were so willing to take photos with us.. haha.. their school's uniform is very nice too.. haha btw the guy wearing the school uniform is really handsome and cute~! but i still think the super duper cute guys is the best~! haha.. very cool!

XUE YIN, i must say u are very sociable.. u actually shake hands with him~!!!!!! haha.. XD

oh ya.. btw.. sadly quite a number of them i think is "shui tu bu fu" then all having diarrhoea.. so sad larh then they have to rest on the bus.. just hope they get well soon.. today is their last day in singapore and they'll be leaving.. awww.... =/

i think it's destiny and fate that brought us together and be a small part of each other's life.. if fate allows it, i hope we'll meet again! Take care for now!! ByE SaGamI OhNo HigH ScHooL StuDenT~! haha... Bye cute cute guy~!! u rawk~!!! so CUTE~!

i think i mad lahh!!! haha seriously mAD~!! just kill me.. i'm never so crazy over a foreign school studentss.. especially that cute cute guy~!! XD JESSLYN"S MAD~!

okiie then i shall talk another time~!

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y

Sunday, October 14, 2007

~ 11:48 PM ~

went out with my mum to parkway.. went to esprit and saw this white tee which looks kinda lyk a sweater.. i damn lyk it lorrr... but my mum saes it's expensive and wouldn't buy it.. i so wan it.. i hope she would go buy for me.. please buy for me mum!! =)
hmmm.. there's like nth to talk about.
todae spend the whole rubbing my eyes.. i dunno why it hurts so much today.. since i woke up it's been irritating me.. haiz!! i hope i wont get a swollen eye tmr~!

*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y