Friday, October 26, 2007
~ 7:15 PM ~
i wrote the email.. i hope it wont hurt her feelings... i'm sorry jing if i did.. this is wad i wrote..
Hello dearest,
Erm i dunno why am i sending u this email.. maybe becuz i'm mad.. But i seriously do not know why.. maybe it's becuz i think we're gonna lose our close relationship soon.. or it's already gone.. i think wad i'm going to sae may hurt ur feelings or maybe spoil ur mood.. i think we dun talk much now.. i dunno how did it happen.. maybe it's that bloody quarrel we had the few years ago.. it's in ur heart.. i believe so.. that's why we're drifting very much apart.. it's getting further and worse... u dun count on me anymore.. u dun confide in me anymore.. maybe even i'm not important to u anymore.. i guess it's becuz u've grow up.. matured lyk u always said.. seriously i dunno.. i just feel that i am beginning to not noe you.. ur getting further away from me.. further and further.. i'm sorry to say this.. i dunno how we can salvage this relationship.. maybe u may decide to give up i dunmind.. i hope i won't lose you.. ur important to me.. maybe jacob's right i shld talk to you.. but i dunno how to talk to u face to face so i decide to write u this email.. maybe u may sae it's me that change.. i dun deny that fact.. i may have changed.. alot u may sae.. i'm talking less with u.. maybe u may think 'wah jesslyn so cool always dun talk de..' but have u wondered ur closer to jacob now.. see wad happen at calen's first month 'party'.. u were all in the room.. maybe even on my birthday.. i came home u guys didn even bother to come out of the room.. why am i caring so much?? wish i was better off somewhere.. somewhere there's people to care for me.. otherwise somewhere there is no feelings in the world.. hey girl i'm not blaming u.. or wad ever.. i just think i dunno u anymore.. sorry i hurt u.. it's from the bottom of my heart.. OMG i's such a coward a loser.. i dunwanna drag jacob into this so he's out of the topic here.. u can decide if u wanna reply me.. wadever it is.. i thank you for being a important part of my life.. i love you.. u mean the world to me..
i hope it doesn hurt her.. serious.. jing u mean a lot to me.. love yaH.. =)
*_a liL noboDy wHom yoU'vE iNsPiReD_* Y
