Friday, October 26, 2007
~ 6:35 PM ~
hmm.. was reading jingjing's blog.. then i realised i am beginning to not know her anymore.. i dunno izzit that bloody stupid childish quarrel million years ago.. most probably so.. i dunno her any more.. we hostile to each other.. we dun talk.. nobody's willing to take initiative.. maybe i shld listen to jacob's suggestion and sort it out with her.. i dunno actually.. i noe she's important to me but i dunno how to talk to her.. she's different from that ohjingjing i've known.. she's not her and maybe i'm not like the jesslyn she used to noe too.. i'm sure... i dunno how to communicate with people.. it's a fact.. i dunno how to talk.. i dunno how to take intiative.. all i do is wait.. thats wad a failure i am.. i mean it.. u can try putting me in a situation where i dunno anybody there.. after a while u'll see i'm still alone unless someone approaches.. i seriously a failure in social skills.. haiz.. how do i improve it? i dunno.. even in 2/3 last year i dun talk to a lot of ppl.. i wont talk.. i dunno maybe it's becuz i care wad people sae and see about me.. haiz.. i dun like that character of mine.. i dun but i can't change it.. i want to be a sociable person but it's a tough hurdle for me.. i dunno wad to do.. sometimes i just wanna give up.. i dun like being alone.. i hate that.. i think i'll consider jacob's suggestion and write her an email since it is difficult to talk to her face to face..
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