Wednesday, November 07, 2007
~ 8:37 PM ~
hmmm... school ended on a bad tone with tendays again.. this doesn't include SE.. i hate that fact that my mood swings are alwaes revolving around tendays especially the girls - zy, cally and rac.. it was supposed to be a quite happy day except for chinese and recess and lessons onward with them.. chinese - i noe lahh zy u got oliver there for CL lessons.. but hello?!?! i'm there too and i'm new to that class there are lots of stuff that i'm not sure.. i'd rather be in B class alone than to joining u in A class but i dun have a choice.. when i wanna ask u something u alwaes use that cannot be bother attitude to answer me... do u think i like it? wad if i try it on u? u would like it too?? i noe u very sociable lahh.. so? does that i mean u have a right to choose your friends? tell me if u dun wan me in tendayys, i can very well step out as if i haven been thru it.. i've been thru such stupid things and i super duper tired of it.. u are a great gang but if u wan me to leave, i dun mind and i wouldn shed a tear for it.. it's not worth it..
then recess, some of the 3e1s passed me their file and told me to keep it.. i'm holding on to the key, i cant sae no.. so i went to put them lahh.. i thott the next lesson would be mrs cheong's lesson and u all wouldn't wanna go out to eat.. but if u were all going out to eat why didn't u guys tell me?!?! someone saw me stepping out the class room to put the file but he didn tell me.. otherwise i would leave to file in class and put if after we come back.. after i put the file, i thott u all were at the canteen so i took all the books that i dun need to the locker and took all the books i wanted before going to the canteen.. but we i got there.. u guys werent there so i guessed it.. u guy went out WITHOUT me? wad friends are u?
later u guys come back, then rac still dare to ask me why i never go?!?! hello?!?! why didn u not ask me before u all leave? dun we remember there's such thing called a phone?!?! u all can wait for zy but cannot wait for me.. how nice.. i noe i sound bloody sarcastic but u think i enjoy what u all have done?? NO!! I DON"T!! hate me for all u want and i give up.. i cant do anything else..
BUT DUN COME APOLOGISING TO ME ON YOUR BLOG! I DUN DESERVE A PUBLIC APOLOGY? AND I HATE IT!!!!! I HOPE U CAN DELETE THAT POST.. I SEE THAT POST MYSELF AND I FEEL LIKE A BLOODY BAD PERSON THAT I NEEDED A PUBLIC APOLOGY!!! I'M NOT!! I HATE PEOPLE APOLOGISING TO ME IN PUBLIC, I'M NOT A PETTY PERSON! i dun write in this blog to blame others.. i write to release my stress..
now i wanna talk about happy stuff.. firstly is my chemistry spa.. i think i did it correctly and hopefully i passed the science practical.. mrs koh let me pass okiie? haha!! titration i did it until very carefully lahh.. dun dare to make mistakes lor scared mrs koh minus my marks.. o level super important lah!! then it comes to physics.. i got the focal length same as miss chia hopefully is correct too and the method is correct too.. i cant thank miss chia enough lehh.. that time the spa trial i dunno mahz so i decided i should go and find miss chia for a retest.. but i still dunnot how to solve so i ask miss chia then she teach me step by step lorr.. then i finally know how to do le.. i noe it's like quite lame lahh.. but really becuz she teach me slowly then i understand and finally know how to do.. i super happie about that lor.. serious!!
i noe rac and zy screwed the test and i couldn't actually be bothered.. i noe i admit this part i'm petty.. sorry i cant help it.. i wanna be nice too but i dun wanna talk to them cuz it reminds me of the recess thing again.. but not only that they cried just like i did for the trial.. but i couldn make an effort to comfort them.. seriously no not at all.. cuz the other time only rac came to comfort me but i really wasn in the mood that day.. otherwise i would comfort them.. but during the trial test when they knew they got the correct answer they were so happy in the lab lahh cannot be bothered about me.. so why should i try to make an effort if then cant be bothered about me.. u all can becuz get correct result and buy bubble tea, i could do so with others but no, i went to do my guides stuff.. i dun wanna look like a baddie but i noe to u i already am.. i noe i can actually be a good gal and friend just staying by ur side and no matter how bad u treat me i should tolerate until u lose such a friend then u noe how to cherish them.. this if from jing's email. thank's jing.. i've learn that and i'll do it the next time..
sorry i destroyed your mood.. made u feel bad but have to pour it out.. this is where i can do it only.. u can not read my blog anymore lahh... i dun mind.. =)Labels: jesslyn is neither happy nor angry
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