Wednesday, January 09, 2008
~ 10:42 PM ~
i'm super duper DEPRESSED today.. first, i couldn't get my locker cuz they wouldn't collect the payment at all!!! *hemph* stupid company, make me super angry!!! ARGH!! secondly, i actually lost my world badge!!!!!!! doubly angry and frustrated.. people might sae it's just a badge but that badge is like 4 years with me already.. i depressed when i lost it.. i was frantically looking for it but i couldn't find.. lost hope le.. i love that badge and i'll missed it.. i'm a faithful person okiie? lastly this thing makes me wanna break down and cry.. as i wan still in hope of trying to find the badge, i walk past a group of ppl in school.. they called me so i looked up and stopped.. i listened.. then someone said, "so and so says you are ugly.." i actually didn't expect to here that larr.. i thot they were trying to tell me something.. but as i heard it, i really didn noe wad was i supposed to sae.. so i just moved my shoulders up and made that wadever/dunno face lor and walked off.. i pretended to act as if i was dumb or not affected by it lorr.. but actually i knew i was bleeding inside... [xin hao xiang bei hen hen de si chen liang kuai] in chinese.. i wanted to cry but i couldn't, tears wouldn't flow at all.. i dunwanna be like this.. i feel very sick inside and i can't vent it out.. play me a sad song and let me cry.. please... i really need something lyk that.. finally i noe how it feeling like to be said mean stuff to.. thankfully i stood up for jing..
yes i noe i'm fat, ugly, irritating, short.. i noe all my weaknesses and i dun need you to tell me.. i wanna be nice too.. but it's nv easy.. i dunwanna be short, fat and ugly too.. but that's me.. i can't change who i am.. i'm depressed.. let me cry.. please..Labels: jesslyn is depressed and wants to cry
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