Tuesday, April 15, 2008
~ 3:54 PM ~
Guess today's bad day.. i dunno why.. so i suppose to have a 5 guides whom i'm proud of to go for NDP and i was happie.. i was giving them moral support.. i mean if necessary i wouldn't mind going down to support them.. i was wishing them luck on friday gave them all my support just hoping they would to their best and get in.. guess i brought them bad luck instead.. one by one started backing out.. i feel bad now.. bad because i cannot convince them to participate in NDP.. bad cuz i feel i brought them bad luck.. i dunno wad's wrong!! i'm disappointed.. one's avoiding me cuz she dun want me to force her.. i thott she had the passion to participate.. the opportunity is right before her and she had to say "i dunwan.. i give up!" why?!?! wen xin and diana! jia you okiie? i will still continue to give you my support de!! i noe the two of u can do it de.. do me proud okiie?? i'm very proud of you.. as for the others i will say no more.. i dunwan to feel bad again!
on the very nite after speech day, i was super happy for my guides! then someone sms me say i'm biased against her.. i feel bad!! wad do you meet i'm biased? i talk to you you ignore me first! then i'm being blamed! do you think i like it? i dunno wad can i do.. i mean i can tell cally but will she understand everything? how i feel about both matters? and i dunwanna look emo or unhappy when i'm with tendayys.. this is the only time i will feel happy..
guess one day i'll go crazy and if i vent my anger on you, i'm sorry, i apologise.. i'm tired and guides meeting for me has officially ending no more meetings with them soon!! =(Labels: bad day i guess
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