Thursday, November 20, 2008
~ 12:50 AM ~
hmmm.. okiie i've graduated from bv le.. got mixed feelings.. haha! okiie.. graduation ceremony and prom was quite fun! the only regret was my hair! i shouldn't have gotten the auntie to set it!! i hated it! oh ya one more regret i didn't get to take a photo with him.. haiz.. lack of courage! i think i'll nv get the courage to confess to him.. call me a coward i'll accept it.. i've got no guts.. D=
okiie.. come to think of it .. it's been 3 years.. this lil crush lasted really long.. there was a short period where i was about to forget him.. then god brought him close to me again.. then i realise we had things in common.. then i couldn't forget him again.. one thing i noe i nv left an impression on him.. to him i may just be a schoolmate a nobody..
i ever thought what if i had told him i like him? what if he likes me too? wad will become of us now? will we be happy? what if he rejected me? what if he was really with her? will i be heartbroken?
people might say you'll nv noe unless you try.. but i'm afraid to try! probably i'm worry he will start avoiding me.. he will ignore me.. he will be frightened away.. i think i lack of confidence too.. the way he think of me matters a lot too.. i wouldn't wanna ruin that.. i dunno.. i'm just scared..
i was really wondering if he had rejected me.. will i cry? i told others i wont.. but i guess i would.. if i see him with her.. my heart would ache.. i would rather die.. but i wont let others see that side of me.. i have to be strong.....Labels: a lil lil crush on him
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