Wednesday, October 07, 2009
~ 7:31 PM ~
J1 bash was fun yet tiring.. it's really great to see that ppl were really enjoying themselves there.. thankfully it was a success.. good job yingying, yenny and afiqah.. =) think we really have to learn our lessons from past events..
aar and wgm today, happy moments and stressful times.. at an instant i felt utterly useless and helpless about record breaking. i realised if you aren involved in a very large scale or major activity, you wont get the attention at all.. =/ from day i/c to mmm 2nd i/c to record breaking.. why? i dunno why am i feeling like this.. why? everything should be fair.. i shouldn be thinking so stupidly..
i had a bad feeling about smth i saw today too.. that made me feel worse.. on the way home, all i was thinking was it.. i was close to tears the more i thought about it.. why am i such a weakling? how stupid can i get? things like "you are so useless, stupid gal" started flowing endlessly.. i'm tired.. very tired.. can someone give me a tight slap or smth? make me stop thinking negatively.. can someone make me cry? i think i'm reaching my limit..
wearing this mask is tiring.. tears will only rolled inwards.. they nv flow out..
Labels: jesslyn failed to keep her thought in place
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