hmmm. finally back in sg. a 3days3nights trip to malaysia only made me realised how much i loved being at home and around all my friends. i suppose the most touching thing was to receive sms from friends again. learning that ppl actually miss u when you're gone for a few days. when i'm in malaysia, i've been thinking about loads of stuff when i'm on my own. somethings that makes me worried, somethings that just disappoints me time and time again.
21nov2009
i blogged about smth that i felt was meaningful enough for me. smth that was important to me. it was smth special and meaningful to me.
24nov2009
i realised there are really nice ppl around that are alwasys ready to go the extra mile for you no matter how much time it takes them. today turns out to be a day full of emotions-ups and downs but things turn out really fine and i had an enjoyable time talking to ppl and smiling. i've never been so cheerful ever since a long time ago. and the skies were clear tonoght. i haven seen such a starry night since forever. does this mean a sign of a good day? (:
i had a walk down a memory lane with a friend of mine. felt it was rather meaningful to look back and see how our friendship evolved.
that point in time,
happiness did win the fight against unhappiness
25nov2009
just one night. less than 24hours ago our friendship was still doing fine. and now... everything's changing. wad's exactly is wrong with me??!! i've been ruining friendships! wad happened? did i do smth wrong somewhere or is it just me? i thought i found a true good friend. one i can trust. one who wouldn mind doing a lot for me. but now i'm worried and afraid. it hurts so much to get the cold shoulder from him. walks down the memory lane's giving me terrible experiences. )': i'll never walk down the memory lane again if i have to lose a friend everytime i walk. i saw a double rainbow with my very own eyes. does this mean i should have faith that everything's going to turn out fine? or will it be otherwise? ):
till today.
our friendship's different now. the response i get just feels so unapproachable and cold. it's painful cuz i dunno wad's on his mind. good friends? i really dunno. ):
maybe i shouldn be take initiative any more cuz it only leads me to regrets. ):
everything's greyscale again
happiness finally lost the fight against unhappiness again
Labels: jesslyn wishes that things will be better again
