hmmmm.. today isn't a really good day for me to begin with. went for training with a light-hearted mood thinking everything will go smoothly and fine. reached the pick up point and heard of the news that someone was kicked out of the contingent. it came as a surprise to me as wad happened the previous week was really minor and not worth being kicked out for. i really wonder about being impartial when u are the contact person/in-charge for the contingent. then it came to the first truncated round. we had to march to the floating platform, the woman marching behind me is about to drive me crazy! she kept kicking and stepping on my shoes when we're marching. furthermore, she told me, "xiao mei zou da bu yi dian/zou kuai yi dian!" but i'm already in line with the rest why do i have to move!??! arghhhh! how i wish i could just tell her straight, u are the one who is on the wrong step so stop blaming others! that totally spoiled my day alr.. (fastforward) today's NE show one. everything was going fine, she wasn't kicking me and stuff until it came to the trial city march. omg she has sooooo much to complain about and then her 'habit' came back again! now worst! it's practically stepping on me from the beginning to the end! 2.4km! arghhh! pissed off! my day's really destroyed despite the random moments of fun inbetween. i hope nx week's gonna be better. jiayou jess. dun lose faith..
(sidetrack a bit)
1) i'm missing my council friends.. this week i managed to meet up with the 106 ppl, a number of us. but i fail to meet the sevens today cuz of ndp. i really would love to have an opportunity to see them and catch up but i wont be free on sats until after ndp.
2) uni's starting soon and i'm getting pretty worried and afraid of what is ahead and to come. :/
3) i hope khoonseng would happen to see this note: hey, i hope we're not like against each other in any way. i dun want anything related to political issues to affect our cousin relationship. i hope everything's fine. btw, Happy 16th Birthday tmr! May all ur wishes come true. see you. :)
4) recently i've been thinking, i want to have my braces removed real soon. it's been about a year alr and there's still a large gap to fill. it's gonna take about another year? =/ i miss without having to wear braces. especially when the dentist use then micro implant (screwed onto my gum) to pull the molars forward.. hurts like crazy. :( need to use this time to cultivate my patience and perseverance.. hmmm..
i need to stop thinking about all the unimportant things that will affect my mood and emotions. come on jess, get over it.
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